If I had 3 Wishes

I'd wish for 5.

Each wish is a dress size.

And I have a year.

So far I've knocked 3 aside and I think that puts me on course for all 5 in 2012. The next one isn't that far off either, hopefully achievable in the next 6 weeks or so. Presumably as I get smaller each pound has to do a little less work to reduce a dress size, so I'm still hopeful of dropping the final two sizes by Christmas. Don't get me wrong, I'm not finished there, but the 5 sizes/100lb thing for me is about goals. Achievable goals I can spend 2012... well.. achieving (hopefully).

So I'm lying really. I want 7... and one for luck? I'd be happy with 7 dress sizes. Truth be told, I might be happy with 6. The problem with having been overweight for so long is that I don't know how I'm going to look or feel at a given size or weight. With this in mind, I intend to aim for another 2 stone after my 100lb this year and then take it from there. I will keep looking at myself and when I like what I see, I'll stop.

The 100lb thing is going well. With this week's loss (did I mention I got my 4.5st award this week?) I am 63% of the way to my goal with 38% of the year to go. For those not mathematically minded out there, that means I have 37lb to lose in 20 weeks. Still an average of less than 2lb per week and a few 2.5s here and there should mean this is doable.

I still don't quite believe I've lost what I have in the time I have lost it in. Slowly but surely though, I'm starting to see changes. When I look in the mirror, I see a smaller person. Not thinner, not more slender. Just smaller. My shoulders look narrower. My neck looks slightly longer. My legs are thinner. My rings are almost falling off. The truth is though, that largely (wait for it) I don't really see it. Other people can though, and that matters more. Hopefully one day in the future, when I've lost my 100lb, then my next 2 stone, and I've decided where I want to be, and I've called Target (even if I haven't reached it), hopefully then I'll see it.

I can't wait for the day someone actually doesn't recognise me though. That's gonna be awesome.